What did you get for Xmas?
I got fat. And happy. And drunk. And lucky, really lucky. Like in the movies lucky, like when you don’t know what you were missing lucky. Like when you feel that everything that you have done and every single thing that has happened to you good or bad in 2017 came down the way it did for a reason, to bring you those special moments that, as a gift, invade your life one day, and the next day, and the day after.
Imagine waking up, getting dressed, leaving the house to go get some coffee after a perfect night. You breathe in, feel the warm air and look around totally cool. Then you look around again, more closely, you notice people with sad expressions on their faces while you feel like you are just levitating, walking on air, looking amazing, feeling amazing and thinking “I am one lucky bitch”. It might have something to do with the perfume you use, the stars, the Universe or that your heart is fully open to even listen and attend to your “so called enemies” when and if needed.
The fact is that even under the worst circumstances, even if crocodile has done everything within his hand to make this Xmas the saddest ever like not paying attention to the kids, not paying child support, who does that in Xmas? Only a reptile. Even if he stole the family car that while married we both decided to put on his company name to save taxes and he did so without a warning, emptying the trunk including toys and other surprises that the kids could have seen, sending a WhatsApp to inform of their location, only to drive the car to his presumably escort lady as proof of love…
Even if all of this disturbing events happened in the middle of the school Xmas holidays, while the kids are off school and we had to get places in order to stay entertained, even if not having a car meant that we did not get to spend Xmas with our other side of the family because they live in a different state, even if I had to spend a fortune on nannies because I had to go to work some of those days and did not have my car get to drive the kids to a family members’ home. Even if this deprived them from having quality family time. Even if I had to run around like crazy many times under the rain because funny enough, the rain did not stop falling these days. Even if this ordeal meant that I had to pay someone by the hour to mind the children again, grab ten taxis to make sure that they had all their Xmas wishes come true, all of this while looking fabulous, attending many functions, getting my nails done…Even with all of this against me, I got lucky. Luckier than ever indeed!
And yes, I did it, I did it all alone and while doing it, while taking care of my entire family, my job, the meals, the details, I felt like I was Xmas myself. It was hard, fun, and most importantly: It paid off.
At 9:47 pm on New Year’s Eve I got a message that made my year balance close really really positively. I think it was Santa. It was a very much wanted message. The next day I got another one announcing an amazing life changing opportunity so cool that it’s hard to believe. I think that was one of the three Magic Kings.
For the entire time I did not loose my smile. I did not loose my drive. I kept fighting, I kept giving, I kept loving..and I got it all back. Love, fun, passion, friendship, support, yes I got some pounds as well from all the great food and wine shared but the best, the amazing new opportunities and memories. Some that have made my life much better than it ever was.
Yes, merry merry Xmas so glad is over because it would be hard to live like this forever!
Looking forward to the new year y’all! It’s going to rock! Stay tuned and never give up.
ps: Santa brought me a fuck off spray, it keeps assholes and idiots away for up to four hours. You should try it it works from a long distance too!