I was once told that you should not fall for your roommate or neighbour because if things don’t work out, you are stuck with a ton of ackward moments to follow. So I secretly fell in love with my next door neighbour and did not show my feelings for him for approximately two years. Then he moved to the South and I said “what the heck! I’m going down to tell him!” I drove 800 miles and when I got there (with my trunk packed with things that his mother had given me for him to eat) I found out that he already had a girlfriend.
My now ex neighbour used to live with his mother. Yes he is past 30 but I never saw him as an unaccomplished man, mostly because he is an actor and actors may spend their entire life waiting for their break.
As most actors, he is moody, particular, self centered and depressive but when he is high about a gig he can be very pleasant.
When I got to his place (with a back up friend) I found out that he wasn’t acting but rather he had found a job as a waiter. He immediately and casually told my friend (not me) about his new relationship status. The lucky girl, a 24 year old college student, was out of town so I told my self “you are a 37 year old woman Rachel, you can seduce him” but certain guys (this one in particular) are not cool around independent strong women, they prefer younger girls that they can still impress somehow and that help them feed their otherwise damaged ego.
So by the time I had paid for the third round of beer I conviced myself that a good friendship was sufficient and I started to play it cool around the increasing amount of people that seemed to hang out with us all the time.
Do you know that feeling of just waiting for a moment with someone and that moment never happening for one reason or another? That is how I felt. It was as if the universe prevented that moment from happening.
Until the last night.
I was packing my things at my hotel when suddenly I got a message that became a conversation:
– when are you leaving?
– no way!
– yes, I am going back home where I can get more attention from men 😉
– you may get more but not better
– you have a girlfriend
– yes, but I want to tear off your panties
– blah blah, you had your chance, besides, I am not wearing any right now…
– 😰 please come over
– No. I’ll say hello to your mom from you, how is that?